终于等到开学了， 真的很期待自己的大学生涯，虽说我曾誓言要考到学位课程，但是说易做难！
今天的上课时还蛮顺利的，只是没想到数学这一科我竟然完全跟不上！我的心情顿时跌到谷底！！我以为数学即使再难我还是可勉强跟得上，现在却万万没想到脆弱的我就这样输给了自己，短时间内我点起了想要转科系的念头，思绪变得极为混乱~
我尽量克服情绪上的干扰，因为在这种情况下做决定时极为危险的，我不想被一时的冲动毁了自己的大学生涯！这是我当时的信念！
跟家人商量过后，决定继续留在这个科系，因为我想到父母用血汗钱来供我读大学，我不禁流下了眼泪~
我恨我自己为什么不争气，小小的搓折就可以毁掉了我的信心~
I HATE MYSELF!!!
2010年5月26日星期三
The UTAR life
finally i intake utar sucessly, and i beginning my new life in PJ. now i feel that the stress of study because i checked some of the examination papers last year. is difficultly then i thought.
but mostly important is i must hardworking in my study. i don't want be disqualified from utar and i don't want wasting my time in the unmeaning things!
i know some new friends through the orientation days especially in activity ice-breaking and what i feel happy because i found my coursemate !
tomorrow will be the last day of orientation~
but mostly important is i must hardworking in my study. i don't want be disqualified from utar and i don't want wasting my time in the unmeaning things!
i know some new friends through the orientation days especially in activity ice-breaking and what i feel happy because i found my coursemate !
tomorrow will be the last day of orientation~
2010年5月14日星期五
失败乃是成功之母
人生的路途从来不可能一帆风顺，有成功的时候就必然也有失败的时候，所以要取得成功就得经过失败，因为经历过失败你才能够明白成功是什么滋味。
该怎么形容我个性上的缺失呢？如果说我并不是个勇于承认自己错误的人一点也不为过，因为很多时候我都很容易被一些小挫折或小批评影响了我的自信心，也严重影响了我当天的情绪，结果我很容易陷入低潮却又不愿面对自己的错失，一直固执地在原地打圈。
这几天我一直在学驾车，之前我是让驾驶学院的老师教导，结果手脚笨拙的我一直不停地被骂。虽然如此，超容易被打击的我就这样一直学不好，因为我潜意识的心态认为我这么笨手笨脚，怎么学也不可能学的会~
时间拖了几天后，一向以来不敢教我驾车的妈妈终于按耐不住出手教我！在学习的过程中我依然不停地出错，妈妈嘴里一直骂我心里却认为我一定能学的好。
虽然现在的我不时仍会出错，但是明显的改善了许多，其实要归功于我的妈妈，她不断的指导我不断的鼓励我，驾车对大部分的人来说很简单，但对我来说是需要时间去学习的~
我并不善于表达情感，但我要感激妈妈的支持~
该怎么形容我个性上的缺失呢？如果说我并不是个勇于承认自己错误的人一点也不为过，因为很多时候我都很容易被一些小挫折或小批评影响了我的自信心，也严重影响了我当天的情绪，结果我很容易陷入低潮却又不愿面对自己的错失，一直固执地在原地打圈。
这几天我一直在学驾车，之前我是让驾驶学院的老师教导，结果手脚笨拙的我一直不停地被骂。虽然如此，超容易被打击的我就这样一直学不好，因为我潜意识的心态认为我这么笨手笨脚，怎么学也不可能学的会~
时间拖了几天后，一向以来不敢教我驾车的妈妈终于按耐不住出手教我！在学习的过程中我依然不停地出错，妈妈嘴里一直骂我心里却认为我一定能学的好。
虽然现在的我不时仍会出错，但是明显的改善了许多，其实要归功于我的妈妈，她不断的指导我不断的鼓励我，驾车对大部分的人来说很简单，但对我来说是需要时间去学习的~
我并不善于表达情感，但我要感激妈妈的支持~
2010年5月11日星期二
leaving and countdown
After some days or time of one week I will leave my hometown-KUANTAN and going to PETALING JAYA the big city that is naerly with KUALA LUMPUR for my study. The UNIVERSITY that I am going is UTAR, I will take the course foundation in arts in first year and start my degree course banking&finance in second year.
I have feel that I may not back to kuantan after fininshed my study.Maybe I think that PJ or KL has better condition for my future job. I knew the cost in that places is very high but I more attend to the condition or the environment of the job(s).
When i was thinking about I am leaving KUANTAN I felt that I am leaving everything and everybody in this place. Every memory in this place I won't forget it and keep it on my heart forever.
I have some nervous about my study life in PJ because PJ is big city:high cost,crodwed,speedly life,and bad public security~beside that I more worry about the contend in UNIVERSITY. I know I am not the best one but I will try my best in my study and never compete myself with other people.
The countdown going to PJ is nearly, I am preparing~
I have feel that I may not back to kuantan after fininshed my study.Maybe I think that PJ or KL has better condition for my future job. I knew the cost in that places is very high but I more attend to the condition or the environment of the job(s).
When i was thinking about I am leaving KUANTAN I felt that I am leaving everything and everybody in this place. Every memory in this place I won't forget it and keep it on my heart forever.
I have some nervous about my study life in PJ because PJ is big city:high cost,crodwed,speedly life,and bad public security~beside that I more worry about the contend in UNIVERSITY. I know I am not the best one but I will try my best in my study and never compete myself with other people.
The countdown going to PJ is nearly, I am preparing~
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